Remember that it is one of the greatest plagues on this side hell, to be given up to our own desires, and that by your eagerness and discontents "So I gave them up to their own heart's lust, and they walked in their own counsels:"
"Oh that my people had hearkened
to me!" & Psalm. 81:12. 'Wherefore God also gave
them up to uncleanness, through the lusts of their own hearts,"
& Rom. 1:24, 26. "For this cause God gave them up to
vile affections," verse. 28.
And even as they did not
like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a
reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient,
2 Thess. 2:10-l2.
God may give you that which you so eagerly desire,
as he gave "Israel a king, even in his anger," Hosea.
Or as he gave the Israelites "their own desire,
even flesh which he rained upon them as dust, and feathered fowls
as the sand of the sea; they were not estranged from their lust
but while their meat was yet in their mouths, the wrath of God
came upon them, and slew the fattest of them," Psalm. 78:27,
"They lusted exceedingly in the wilderness, and tempted
God in the desert, and he gave them their request, but sent leanness
into their souls," Psalm. 106:14,15.
God may say, Follow
your own lust, and if you are so eager, take that which you desire;
take that person, that thing, that dignity which you are so earnest
for; but take my curse and vengeance with it: never let it do
you good, but be a snare and torment to you.
"Let a fire
come out of the bramble and devour you," Judges. 9:15.